I'm sitting in a Florida airport right now after a week in Fort Lauderdale with the family plus my new brother. Now we're waiting for the flight that will take us north to Virginia where I'll get to stay with Kendra and Greg for another week. Vacation was fun...remind me never to live in Florida: hot, humid, Miamii is like morally oppressive...but a week at the beach was very nice.
At the Kennedy Space Center
My last semester of college was rough; there was so much to do and so much happening to me I felt like Job at times, losing people I cared for, viral infections, car accidents, ect...but throughout, God was good, taking the things I had put my security in and reminding me that it is He who desires to be my all, and I, like Gomer, learned for a season, and then again forgot, pursuing my other lovers. So, God continues to take from me...and then give back...continues to break me...and then heal again.
Now, the lesson is patience and truly loving. Patience in what God has in store for me, patience in the people around me, working to exhibit the love that Christ has for me to everyone. I'm stretching to learn what it means to love when the other seems to despise you, to want good for others when they want no good for you.
I'm learning who God is, His attributes never cease to amaze and unsettle me. What am I worthy of this love? But that is the point. I am not worthy, and will never be...for God does not love me according to my merit but according to who He claims to be. His promises are structures already formed. And my future, He has already lived out. What a love, what a Savior, what a God!
